I'm Sinful!

Tears was shed...
Anger was aroused...
I hoped they would comprehend...
When I was mad of somebody, I was even mad of myself more!
But it was useless...
Coz in their eyes, I was already determined to be SINFUL...
How I wished they could see my heavy & vulnerable heart...
Coz the scars I left in their hearts, were even giving me deeper scars...

Embracing my pillow,
I was thrashing around on my bed,
It had already passed 12 at mid-night,
In that wee hours of the morning,
I couldn't stop weepin & bear,
God was beside me,
Giving me a BIG HUG!

And I tearfully asked Him,
"Father, why would I have to comfront all these? Why did sacrifices resulted in such ways?"
HE gently patted my head and answered,
"My child, no matter what had happened, I am always here with you and I still LOVE you!"
His Words touched me even deeper, and more tears rolled down my cheeks,
HE carried on with His Words, touching my forehead,
"My daughter, Miki, you must be strong!"
But my heart was already torn into pieces, I could barely feel that I had any strength,
"But...What else can I do?"
The Lord comforted me,
"Bear with me, and I'll shine on you!"
More and more tears dropped,
I could feel my warm tears on my face.



HE knew that I needed HIM,
And HE always does...
HE is the one who brighten up my path,
whenever I'm in darkness...


THANK YOU FATHER!
I LOVE YOU,
And I NEED YOU!